more random than the usual randomness

as i sit in my pink bathrobe with a heating pad strewn about my lap, one thought enters my mind; it's fucking cold. Winter is officially upon us. and by officially upon us, i mean by my definition of the commencement of the winter season... the first time I have to scrape my windows. That day was yesterday. welcome winter, you wonderful white fuck :(

So, something clicked for me today. I realize why priests are anti-abortion. wider partner selection opportunity.

shout out to the girl that made me smile today... whether you know who you are or not :)

I am reading a book called "love sick" that talks about how love is basically a psychological disorder. I intended to write a deep in-depth essay about what love is, what makes somebody fall in love with you, the pitfalls of love and why they occur. How to have the strongest relationship possible. Pair bonding and what it means for natural human inclination (partner selection, duration of partnership, infidelity), the role evolutionary psychology plays in love, replication, and commitment with respect to both males and females. status, power, and how the dynamic of these things in the relationship ultimately determine the longevity and satisfaction of your relationship. What women look for in a man, what a man can do to increase his appeal to females, and conversely what men look for in women, and what they can do to increase their appeal. The difference between limerence and companionate love. The role of jealousy, infidelity and gene dispersion in ancient times, and the relevance it has today. the role of expectation, bias, and distortion with respect to it's adaptive and maladaptive presentations in modern romance. the idea of passion, committment, and intimacy, and how the presence and strength of each of these characteristics can result in different types of feelings all termed under the nominilization "love" How to keep your relationship strong, how to ensure it's success from beginning, (starting with pre-selection), to the end of the bond. Why certain people seem to repeat the same relational mistakes over and over, and what they can do to change that. Why the internet has started to and will continue to revolutionize the formation of the pairbond, from inception to dissolution. Cross cultural differences and the reasons behind them. Your attachment style (caused by your experiences with your mother at birth) and how that relates to the type of mate you attract, and the satisfaction you have with different mates. Your sex life, and how that contributes to the stability, instability, and enjoyability of the relationship as a whole through the eyes of both partners. and much more. but, it appears as though that's a rather large task to take on whilst on an ambien, so perhaps, another day. There are all sorts of interesting studies that I would like to pepper in throughout the essay. should be fun.

I would also like to write an essay on vegetarianism, financial prudency, time management/goal setting, the long range outlook for our economy and politics, racism, sexism, prejudice, and maybe one on leading a successful life. maybe one on fashion, grammar, something I'm knowledgeable about and can impart wisdom. I would also be willing to take suggestions from the audience :p


well... now that that is out of the way, ambien and I are about to have a threeway with our friend pillow. kinky.

kisses