alas, I can spread my wings and fly. (ps. this title is clever if you speak spanish)

The competition is over. I have emerged from my cocoon of social isolation, and I am a baby butterfly eager to flap his wings. The amount of ambition, drive, and optimism I have is unparalleled. I only hope that some of you will join in my unbridled enthusiasm for life. I plan on doing lots of stuff in the upcoming months. I want to try any and everything, and live life to it's fullest. Anyone who wishes to accompany me, do it. If you have any ideas about kick ass things I should do in the next few months, please, feel free to share them with me.
etc. etc. you get the point.

the competition went lovely, it proved to me that I am a tenacious, dedicated individual, and I am proud of what I accomplished. I'm lucky to be able to make so much money for doing something as silly as playing poker. I consider myself one of the most fortunate people alive.

I'm still kind of lonely. It's frustrating feeling so optimistic about life but having nobody to share it with. This too shall pass I assume, but in the meantime, it's frustrating. Instead of it getting me down or deterring me though, I use it as motivation to make myself the absolute best person I can be... and I am so enthusiastic about the direction my life appears to be moving in. I've had a lot of interesting experiences lately, but i unfortunately do not have the time to go in to them at length. one of my best friends (from the time I was 5 or so) got married just over a week ago. It was fantastic to see him so happy and to be there for that moment in his life. Brought a tear to my eye... literally. Sentimental old chap I am. I received the Tao a couple of days ago. So, I am officially a Taoist. That's kind of cool :) The ceremony was very interesting, pretty, and an overall great experience.

life is beautiful.

I'm so excited to be done with the poker competition and have shitloads of free time :D So So So, excited.

addio.

it's a quarter past sleepy time, and I hate not being punctual ;)

valien, ambium

I have a date, in about six minutes. His name is pillow. He makes me feel so comfortable, I feel like when I'm around him, I can just shut my eyes and close off the world ;)

It's June, it feels as if it came so soon.

but my poker playing binge will come to a proverbial purge soon. That excites me. I can't wait to catch up on the other areas of my life that have been put on hold.

Penguins are so fucking cute... and who the fuck puts celery in a pasta salad. That's just non-sense.
Andy Warhol died after a "routine gall-bladder surgery." I'm glad I didn't know that shit before. Some of my favorite things. a glass of water completely stuffed with ice. King size beds with new sheets and pillow cases. Waterfalls. The fog. Music with violins. the smell of bondo. Lucid dreaming, cryptoquotes, the smell of vanilla. Me.

My fan is set on three, I think that I shall turn it down to one.

If the lakers win the championship, I will be sad. Go Orlando. Either way, i guess each of them are close to disneyland or disneyworld.... so that's convenient.

hen fang bian or something like that.

I knew how to say snail in spanish yesterday... i forgot. caracol or something like that? perhaps. I'm too lazy to look it up.

I hate hang nails. I love the movie V for Vendetta. I am watching V for Vendetta, and I have a hangnail... I guess the two kind of cancel each other out.

Note to self. June 6th. baby shower. wedding. don't forget.

People from England are English, People from argentina are argentinian, people from china our chinese, people from japan are japanese, people from portugal, portugese... etc. etc. Why the fuck are people from spain spanish. Why not spainish? makes no sense to me. dumb.

I love palindromes: radar, mom, civic, level, racecar, redivider (longest palindromic word), deified (another very good one), a toyota, never odd or even (awesome), was it a car or a cat i saw? (equally awesome)

those make me smile. You know what's fucking nuts? I spelled each and every one of them backward. I am a rebel.

Bolivia has two capitals. La Paz, and Sucre. I believe that Sucre is the highest capital in the world, as far as elevation goes. I may have made that up though. I'm not sure.

I want a mini cow as a pet.

Prairie Voles are an interesting little species. studying them is how we have found out much of the information we have on human "love"

When I was little, Lady and the Tramp was my favorite movie :)

I go to sleep now.

ciao like mein.

oh. chow mein translates as "fried noodle" in mandarin i believe, but it isn't spelled like that. chao mian I think. I dunno. My pinyin is subpar due to the lack of attention i've paid it lately.

kisses... lady and the tramp, spaghetti noodle meet in the middle kisses... to you all

;)