tenacity, vivacity, and audacity.

In the last two weeks, I have played a quarter of a million hands of poker. You may not realize how many that is, so allow me to elucidate.. If I were to play in a casino (on one table because that is all that's possible in a casino... unlike online) for 40 hours a week, it would take 3 to 4 years. 200 weeks or so... I have accomplished this in two weeks. woot woot.

this blog is going to be random... i can tell already.

three of my favorite lines ever from a poem by eavan boland

Flesh is heretic. My body is a witch. I am burning it.

David Copperfield was performing today and tomorrow. I wanted to go. I didn't today, and i can't tomorrow. le sad. (i think that's french for sad). ;)

My brother is going to see blue man group tomorrow. It's his first time. I'm excited for him.

I feel euphoric. I feel sad. It's an odd combination.

I am going to start volunteering random places. Andrew has been volunteering lately. I am going to join him and or do some things on my own. If anybody knows any good opportunities, or would like to accompany me... let me know.

I am going to Dane Cook this Thursday. exciting (and ridiculously overpriced).

In late June, I think that I may go stay in Vegas for a week to a month-ish.

Father's day, I am supposed to go to California with my father. Car show swap meet thingy. I want to buy another car. Probably a mopar muscle car. I probably won't... but if I see the right car or deal. I am doing it.

Things plan on doing in the next couple months: get passport. learn a little bit of origami, sign up for fall semester at the U or SLCC, sign up for match.com so I can actually meet a girl or two (since I am apparently horrible at that nowadays), Memorize a phonetic alphabet up to 100 to improve my memory, Play in a live poker game somewhere in the valley... at least once a month, take another dance class (preferably salsa), organize my wardrobe, etc. etc.

As I am typing this, I am playing 12 tables of poker. I surely have ADHD.

I need to find brown dress shoes.

I have eaten 20 del taco burritos in the last 5 days.

whoever invented the scentsy... I love you.

Angela is going to have her baby soon... yay!

I went through a wave where everyone I knew was having a baby... That wave will end with Janessa. Apparently the new wave... everybody I know is getting married in the next little while

I had a cup of blackberries and a bowl of tea... i found that strange. yes, I typed that correctly. I drink bowls full of tea because cups aren't big enough.

Andrew wrote a new song. It's lovely... he's talented. I wrote some of the lyrics for it. go me :)

I just ate a cinnamon roll. I <3 cinnamon rolls.

I haven't played ping pong in ages. I would like to remedy that in the near future.

I know too many people with the same name. Tons of jenny's (5) tons of sarah's (4) a few brittanys, a few whitneys, a couple angelas. This shit gets confusing :s my phone dislikes it. I hate sending texts to the wrong person.

I'm going to some tao ceremony type thing with my mother tomorrow. Tons of vegetarian fare. yay. Oh, that reminds me, I want to go to the krishna temple one of these sundays when they have potluck vegetarian wonderfulness.

favorite quote at the moment: fortune favors the bold. a maxim to live by.

I want to go to an opera in the very near future. I love the opera...

Playing so much poker and having to concentrate and use so much brain power has been fantastic. I feel smarter than I've ever felt in my life. my brain is very sharp. It makes me smile.

Pitfall to all this poker though... i haven't spoken chinese in quite some time. which sucks... because tomorrow, I will be speaking chinese all day at the tao thing.

For those of you that don't know... I currently have a shaved head. I hope that it grows back by june 6th... I have a wedding to attend.

I have about 750,000 points that I have to redeem at http://www.absoluterewardsstore.com/
I'm not sure what to get... whitney... if you get super bored at work, look through the items on there... you're good at finding cool shit... tell me what I should get. Maybe I'll even get you a hoodie as a thank you :p

there are three songs between them, I have listened to them 178 times in the last four days. I have obsessive personality disorder. It's silly.

the end.

Janessa, Sarah 1, Vince, Robert, Samantha, Brittany Thatcher, Camrann, Joby, Chanda, Lauren, I haven't seen any of you guys in forever, and I miss your faces.. forever meaning months-ish. The rest of my friends, I love you as well... and I'm glad that I've seen you in the last month or so.

May I also take this time to reiterate what a good friend Andrew is. He has been kicking life's ass lately. He was already a great person, but lately, he has continually improved himself, and I am inspired and in awe of what a dedicated, kind, thoughtful brilliant person he has become. and I am proud to say that I know him, proud that he is my friend, and eternally thankfulmore that he is my roommate. He has put up with hermit lane playing poker constantly, kept the condo immaculate, done so many things for me lately, and I am in awe of the person he has become. Love your guts Andrew.

I went to express the other day... and apparently, I tickle many a gay guy's fancy. I was hit on by four men, and it was flattering. Now only if we could get somebody with two x chromosomes to feel the same way.

I got a massage the other day. Oh dear... heaven, I have tasted what you have to offer, and I must say... fantastic.

I am rambling. I dun't care. It's my blog and I'll do what I want!

The last few episodes of house have been very good. Anybody that doesn't watch house... I recommend you do so. from season 1 episode 1 to the current episode. you will thank me later.

Whitney. do you know where the band name saosin comes from... very interesting story. and for the record, Anthony Green screwed up, and it should be pronounced she-ow-shin. It comes from a chinese concept... xiao xin. which directly translates to little heart... but the translation comes from a meaning in chinese of caution, and not becoming too attached to anything in this world because it will eventually end. and Whitney... listen to cinematic sunrise, and isles and glaciers, both great bands. singer from chiodos. great stuff.

your touch, a diazepam injection,
a xanax bar taken in four sections.

I wish to write a poem with those two lines in it.

I also wish to write a villanelle and a sonnet. I'm feeling very poetic as of late.

I want to play basketball or softball. I can't yet. Boo to recovering from surgery.

To everybody that is nice to me, thoughtful toward me, cares for me, has been there for me throughout my life (most of you know who you are), I love you.

I want Indian food. vegetable masala. yum. double yum.

I want to go to the zoo soon.

I was reading through some of my old blog entries... it's funny the twists and turns life takes. Good, bad, neutral. I could have never predicted two years ago where my life would be today. It's amazing. I love life. I can't wait to see what the next two years have in store.

PS i am more ambitious, dedicated, focused, and eager for success than I have ever been in my life. It's the most empowering, positive feeling in the world. I suggest everybody try it.

carpe the motherfucking diem.
create your own destiny.
Life is yours for the taking. never forget it. never become complacent. Strive to make your life everything you want it to be. Start today. No excuses.

Love you all from the bottom of my wonderful, thoughtful, pure heart. :p

Now I must go to bed so I can conquer the world tomorrow.

sieze the day kisses to each and everyone of you.

live your life with tenacity, vivacity, and audacity.