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I took salsa lessons today. I have two left feet. and three legs, that makes it hard to dance. My partner is lovely though. yay. go me.
I have been more social lately. yay!
For some reason I shake like an epileptic at a rave though. that's no bueno.
I listened to a podcast on ketamine as a possible intervention for treatment resistant depression. fascinating.
I have the new brand new album and the new used album. that makes me happy. p.s. if you analyze those sentences they sound super funny. "new brand new" "new used" ha. that's silly.
speaking of silly. 56 people signed the declaration of independence. i may have made that up. Jalapeno soup is lovely. I love the movie adventureland. Everybody should see it. I used to really like mike tyson when I was a little kid. Too bad he turned into a rapist/crazy/ear biter. only boxer I ever liked to watch. Prince has to have surgery. He has a bump. pretty routine, but surgery nonetheless. Nevada has the most individual mountain peaks in the united states. Phoenix is the most populated capital city in the united states. i talked to Marcela tonight. I haven't seen/talked to her in forever. I rarely take good photographs. I think I'm the most unphotogenic person alive. I have two cuts on my finger. they look like vampire bites. I saw the show "bite" at the stratosphere once. not worth the money, but it was enertaining. I also saw blue man group (a couple of times). eye contact is weird. I'm trying to get better at holding it. I can't believe how many people cross their arms or play with their hair in large groups. I have to try my hardest not to do it. Labor day weekend is this week (I think at least?) I believe my friend from baltimore is coming in. that's lovely. People that play bass for a living just play with four pieces of string all day. That sounds like a kick ass job. donkeys eyes are positioned so that they can see all four of their legs at the same time. I saw bears playing hockey. Google it, it was awesome. My english accent is pretty good now adays. I think my american one is shit though. I'm sad the gallivan center concert series is over. Bull rides kick ass. despite them being unsuccessful. today i ate bean fold overs for breakfast. pretty good. pumpkin chocolate chip cookie too. (and lots and lots of coffee). Halloween is coming up soon. I carved a pumpkin once. it looked retarded. Can you say retarded... or is that an offensive word? I'm not sure. it looked like a pumpkin with a severe pervasive developmental disorder. perhaps that's better. The DSM V comes out in 2010. that makes me excited. my computer (laptop had 2 gb free out of 160. eek. i fixed it. it runs better now. september 26th, I want to walk in the NAMI walk. (I think it was called nami. somebody should walk with me. national academy of mental illness or something. go charity.

beauty is a lie to old sweetly. flesh is heretic. scrabble is angellic. My mother and I are going on a vacation in a month. we're kick ass. just a baby one. but we're kick ass. panic attacks are strange. I listened to a lot of information about them yesterday. girl at my house had a panic attack. guy with an unbuttoned button up shirt wanted to beat me up. it was silly. I was in a onesie and a mexico beanie. sesame (fake) chicken is good too. coffee takes like ass... but it sure picks me up. gee whiz. went to fetish night at area 51 for clint's birthday. Odd group of people. Naked people being carried around by collars. pleather, whips, etc. my kind of party. ha ;)

his real birthday is tomorrow... i hope i don't damn forget. whit, if you read this and remember, remind me. Gaz is brittish, hell of a kid. Sincere and true friend. He's a car detailer. If you ever need your car detailed by a man that worked for bently/landover, he's one of the best in the state, and reasonably priced. if you want your car detailed, let me know, and I'll see what I can swing. Sorry to plug that there... not usually my style. speaking of plugs. I need to fix the one in the bathroom. screw it, double entendre.

I hope fall happens soon. I want to wear my sweaters and shit. I love king size beds.. and penguins. not sure if I'm a fan of them both together... but i'd certainly give it a try. I think it night night time. besos.

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but surely I digress... I always liked that saying... but surely i digress, let me dive right into it. people never cease to amaze me. whether that's good, bad, or indifferent, is not the point. the point is the sense of wonderment and wondering what it meant. I'm spent. I haven't slept well in days. I feel in a general malaise. like the rat that just can't quite get through the maze. fuck cheese. is that really a sufficient reward for navigating this convoluted maze. That's the question I struggle to answer. what if I don't want the cheese... what if i just want to sit and admire the complexity of the maze. I'm not sure what i want... and If i want the cheese, what kind of cheese do I want. where do I buy this cheese. who stole my cheese (read that book) i think my cheese is swiss. it has unfilled holes in it. But surely, I digress ;)

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i had my best scrabble score today. 506. and my best word... 186... a triple triple with the word "ambition." go me. I am by no means a scrabble professional... but I sure do enjoy it. the taco bell "fourth meal" is a stupid advertising ploy. Is that really what fat america needs? the addition of an extra meal. silly.

the ataris are coming in a month. that makes me excited. I <3 their new song too. I don't write in my blog anymore, but I think for the remainder of this blog, I will speak in homonyms whenever possible. This weekend was fun. Eye hung out with a lot of people eye had knot scene inn sum thyme. Eye danced my ass off, socialized with every won, and even maid some knew friends. good thymes. Saturday went two a party at Sarah's house. It was low key, butt fun. Today, eye took it a little easy. I just went to Sam's where she was nice enough too let me eat her food, and showed me pitchers from they're trip two europe. it looked like sew much fun. Eye was jealous. ewe wood bee two. This blog is about nothing. silly. Eye do knot really have much to right about. I fill knot creative. In the next weaks eye wood like two hang out with some of my friends.Eye fill very asocial, and eye need two bee social. sum body help me with that. eye figure this blog is better than know blog at all... though eye am quickly changing my mind. :p soon eye will right a real won. let me end bye saying... pleas, pleas pass healthcare reform. Are system is a joke, and i want too stop paying sew much money ever month even though eye am a healthy 26 year old mail. it is just dumb. Go public option! good luck.

love awl of ewe.

homo(nym) kisses to you all.